self realization

self realization - the absence of personality?
if i am a stranger 2 myself
does that indicate i am on the right path?
is it when i suprise myself that im closest to the truth,
viewing my actions as a detached voyouer
a passenger in my own car.
losing control or is it
leaving me, crawling inside 2 such a place 2 leave body and consciousness unmanned......

like in music - playing as a listener barely aware of action, only the sound
is this refinement?

who is this person anyway?.....